Otologist visit today
Quite normally, a day when I have a visit with the Otologist is not a pleasant one to say the least. I wait sometimes upwards of 3 or 4 hours in the office to suffer an excruciating experience getting my ear cleaned.  I’ve learned some tricks to making it bearable and I think today I’ve learned yet one more.  The last couple of visits, I’ve taken some tylenol before my visit (I’m not a ‘medication taker’, but I make an exception in this case) and I have a good meal before I go. This seems to help ward of the ‘dizzies’. The other thing I do is refuse to allow suction to be used in my ear. In the past, even 5 seconds would send me into a ro

Update on the ‘upgrades’
Sometime last week a calmness came over me. While I’m still feeling nauseous a lot of the time and not sleeping, a mysterious patience has taken hold. I think I may actually almost be back to my ‘old’ self. I’ve had many days of only raising my voice once or twice. I’ve calmed down really upset kids with out getting upset myself… I’ve just somehow found the words. I’ve love them & played with them & taught them & I feel fantastic. I know I have a long way to go, but I’m so excited at this start! For those of you that don’t know me, I’m a part of a

On being sick…
I’ve been sick for 2.5 years & maybe even longer and I have to say it’s getting tough. The outlook to me right now, still undiagnosed, seems sad. Will I feel like this forever? I certainly hope not. While it’s not awful and I’m sure there are people who are in worse situations than I am, it’s not a pleasant way to live and I do want to LIVE AGAIN! About a month after Kylie was born I got this ear infection that would NOT go away. It took 10 MONTHS of ear drops, regular cleanings (every 2 weeks), persistantly keeping all moisture out and almost surgery to clear it up. As a result, I have vertigo and an ear that needs to be babied… don̵

Our 2 little miracles…
For those that know us, you must be wondering what I’m talking about. We had no problems conceiving (even if it did take a few months), I had relatively smooth pregnancies (unless you count the daily nausea for the whole 9 months in both cases), the births were Natural with little trauma (including the accidental homebirth) and our babies were lovingly breastfed as well as coslept in Kylies case. So why, do you ask, are they our little miracles? When you think about it… 2 souls come together and create a wonderous thing. It’s grown and nurtured in the body for 9 months. You feel it grow and move and live. Then is born into this world souly depending on you fo