But i dont wanna
I had to take a long break, i couldnt come to this point again. i dont want to whine, and that is all i would have done, or sobbed, or ached. i hate to admit it but i do find inspiration in pain, but the incredible irony is that i want to hide away from the world, so the inspiration is meaningless because i dont want the audience that would be needed. i dont really want you to know me. but maybe i do. how much more twisted can it get than that? that i am afraid of you, but need you at the same time. i dont want to speak but i'm dying inside to yell at the top of my lungs? how broken am i. damn, thats not what this is supposed to be about. it's really not, b

I'm guilty... or... do you like me?
Random, but i like dual titles. its just fun. i think rocky and bullwinkle used to do that. ahhh anywayi've been thinking on this one for a while, and i guess its finally coming down to getting it out of me.I am guilty. I'm guilty of a lot of things actually, but one that has been eating at me recently is this... i have embraced humility for a long while. I do find it to be an incredible quality, of that there is no doubt, but if i was honest with myself, i have used humility to cover insecurity and self doubt.I find myself more and ore fascinated by insecurity. A good friend of mine told me he has noticed it a lot in single family homes and broken

Practice
ok, So in the last two months there has been a lot of changes in my life. I quit smoking, 6 weeks in now. i started a crazy work out regiment. 54 days nowand the whole time i keep coming back to practice and how we can be going down paths that are either good for us or bad for us.Its so true, the things we practice, are the things we become. If you get angry often, you will find it easier and easier to get angry at things. the more you do it, the better you become at it. it really works that way for everything, working out, quitting a habit, an emotional response.if you put a person down because you are angry, you

Yikes
Its been a while since i updated. Busy busy i guess. It's been an interesting time for me. I quit smoking. Going on 6 weeks now. Its been great.In addition to that, i started the p90x work out program. Wow, talk about intense. im on day 54. 54 days in a row i've worked out for over an hour a day. I'm going to day 90 without missing a day. ok, actually i'm going to day 92, (i missed 2 days because i was sick). i might even run the program again after i get done with it the first time.In addition to that i've been working on a website, starting a blog for the site, and a bunch of social media links for it.found a new guitar i want a

This just in... #1 cause of death in America....
Recently a scientific probe was released....Dying is the number one cause of death in america.But call now for the remedy. Only available while supplies last. Act quickly!sigh. i've been listening to swine flu stuff all day.If i wasnt courteous enough to watch my language i would be dropping expletives like no ones business.I get so freakin tired of scare tactics, conspiracy theories, sensationalism, just the whole pile of steamy stuff. I wonder when we'll hit the generation that hides in the corner, dooming humanity to extinction becuase we're too afraid to breed any more.Oh and by the way. just a sho