absentee boyfriend(?)
Okay, I've figured out two things. The first, I should never go this long without caffeine again. Tomorrow would've made five weeks. I was getting entirely too cranky, so that time without tea had to end. The second, I am still very much a mess. I know, shocking.I should not have reacted as strongly as I did to what happened (or didn't) with J. It's not even really about him. It's about me. It's

Braaaaaaaaaaaaains
Mm, delicious brains. Strangely, looking at this pic puts me in the mood for eyeballs with a little blood on the side. I love Halloween. To view the rest of the pics, click here. To find out how to make your own bleeding zombie brain, watch this handy instructional video!Happy Halloween!

transparent motivation
I don't get it. A week ago, J was half in love with me, going on about what he thought our kids might look like. Today? Ugh. Okay, for whoever might be following my personal soap opera, I found out why he didn't call me back Saturday night. R told me that he'd left his phone at his other job. Okay, fine. He was unreachable. But, seeing as how he has two cell phones and this was Wednesday when I

post-storm calm
I am done freaking out. Two reasons.The first, I never should've lost my cool like that in the first place. He's just a guy, right? (Yes, I really did flip through Mr. Right, Right Now! yesterday. It helped, obviously.) And, however wonderful he seems(ed?), I can't lose my mind. I need that thing in working order. Especially since I'm start NaNoWriMo in less than a month.Reason two, R couldn't

Desperation
It was bad. It was very, very bad. I was phone stalking him. How did I get to this place?I blame my boss, "R". He likes to attempt to set up everyone in the restaurant. I should tell him I like girls and see what he does. It wouldn't entirely be a lie. Besides, if could find me someone hot enough... Anyway, I and one of my coworkers (who will be known as "J") are the only two who are single. So,