Three Years!
My first post in this blog was sometime in November, 2006. It is November, 2009. My blog has passed almost three years. Wow! Three years! I never imagined at that time that I would continue it for so long. Three years is a long and for me it is even more. I have spent plenty of my times with my blog. I was kind of obsessed with my blog during the last fall, even worse during the last, last fall. Now I hardly manage time to write something. Am I too busy? Probably not, probably I don’t have much to tell or to be more specific, I don’t have much to say to my readers, or maybe I become more introvert, or maybe I am not comfortable with too much traffic. Whatever the reason is, I am not

Long Nights
Have no fearFor when I'm aloneI'll be better off than I was beforeI've got this lifeI'll be around to growWho I was beforeI cannot recallLong nights allow me to feelI'm fallingI am fallingThe lights go outLet me feelT'm fallingI am falling safely to the groundAh...I'll take this soul that's inside me nowLike a brand new friendI'll forever knowI've got this lightAnd the will to showI will always be better than beforeLong nights allow me to feelI'm fallingI am fallingThe lights go outLet me feelI'm falling

I wanted to cry
Well here comes my babyShe's dressed oh so cuteShe looks a little crazyIn her Hollywood shoesWell baby loves drivingIn my hot brand new carShe thinks less than flyingIs not fast enoughBut when you turn upside downLife ain't too much funI wanted to cryBut the tears wouldn't comeHere comes my babyShe's the one I adoreWell she's a lucky ladyBorn in a Gucci storeWith gold cards in motionAnd the platinum tooShe jets across the oceanA little faster than youBut when it rains in St. BarthLife ain't too much funI wanted to cryBut the tears wou

set me free!
It is always hard to predict what's coming in. It is sometime even harder to realize what is going on. I have spent my entire life to realize what is going on and every time I try to figure out what have I learned about life? My found a big empty, it is empty like Buddha's emptiness. I have real trouble coping with life. I have real trouble to live. I never understand what life is but I always try. It causes pain to run after something that doesn't exist. May life doesn't have any meaning, we stupid bunch of people running after it. I never understand people I never understand life. I never understand relationship. There are so many things I don't understand. My ignorance beats

Paranoid
Finished with my woman cause she couldnt help me with my mindPeople think Im insane because I am browning all the timeAll day long I think of things but nothing seems to satisfyThink Ill lose my mind if I dont find something to pacifyCan you help me thought you were my friendWhoah yeahI need someone to show me the things in life that I cant findI cant see the things that make true happiness, I must be blindMake a joke and I will sigh and you will laugh and I will cryHappiness I cannot feel and love to me is so unrealAnd so as you hear these words telling you now of my stateI tell you to enjoy life I wi