2 months on
It was just two short months ago that our baby girl died.  Though I cry less, the weeping is deeper and longer.  And though the days are no longer a haze, each day is a concerted effort to face the children and pregnant women at work, in shopping centres and public spaces.I want to be pregnant again, but I want my body to heal fully.  I want more children, but I am acutely aware that another child will not replace the one that I've lost.It is painful today, 2 months on...

What Makes A Mother?
My darling friend Claire sent me this great poem.  I love it, and yes I cried when I read it - good tears though.  I hope it blesses other mothers...What Makes A Mother?I thought of you, I closed my eyesand prayed to God today.I asked what makes a Motherand I know I heard him say,"A Mother has a baby.This we know is true."But God can you be a Motherwhen your baby's not with you?"Yes you can!" He repliedwith confidence in His voice,"I give many women babies,when they leave is not their choice.""Some I send for a lifetimeand

It's OK to cry
I have finished reading It's OK to cry. I found it so helpful in accepting my own emotions in dealing with the loss of Anna. I recommend it to anyone who is struggling with "infertility", "miscarriage" or loss of a baby.

One month
Sunday is one month since we met and lost Anna.  Though I feel quite emotional, I am choosing to spend this beautiful Spring weekend doing things in her memory.  I finished her quilt this week.  Today I started a quilted wall-hanging in the same fabrics to hang in our living room.  We ar

Helpful Sacred Writings
There have been some Bible verses that have given David and I much solace in deep pain.  For example:Luke 2:36-38 "There was also a prophetess, Anna, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Asher. She was very old; she had lived with her husband seven years after her marriage, and then was a widow until she was eighty-four.  She never left the temple but worshiped night and day, fasting and praying.  Coming up to them at that very moment, she gave thanks to God and spoke about the child to all who were looking forward to the redemption of Jerusalem."