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KNITMAN · 11M ago

BECOMING DEPENDENT - DEALING WITH FORCED CHANGE

I am certainly no angel. People often say to meal how brave I am and whilst I appreciate that they are being kind something which I really do appreciate, it isn't really true.For one thing I...
KNITMAN · 11M ago

HOPE...I CAN'T FIND IT

Every time I feel down the same thing comes up: I have no hope. Yes, I k now how lucky I am to have a husband who adores me and takes care of me. 35 yrs this coming July. I get to listen to ...
KNITMAN · 11M ago

HOW IT WAS...OR WASN'T

If you are an adult and I came up to you and slapped you or punched you or kicked you or tried to throttle you, you would know that I did and take appropriate action. No matter what I said, ...
KNITMAN · 12M ago

SCIENCE SHOWS THAT CHILD ABUSE CAUSES PERMANENT BRAIN DAMAGE

This is not popular. There are grades of abuse. However, when I listen to people, if they know mine, they often say 'but compared to yours it was nothing' and I tell them that pain is pain. ...
KNITMAN · 1Y ago

THERE WERE GOOD TIMES TOO

I was talking yesterday to John about the way that I think about my past. It came about because I learned that  human beings tend to remember the bad things more clearly than they do the goo...
KNITMAN · 1Y ago

A DREAM IN TWO PARTS

I decided I need to talk to someone as I don't seem able to see past this brick wall. I have made two appointments with two different people and am waiting upon a third to contact me. I fel...
KNITMAN · 1Y ago

CALLING YOUOOOOOO

HI-does anyone read this blog anymore? It seems to they don't as there are no comments, or rarely. I have been feeling guilty a long time for not having kept it up as I did. Partly it's has ...
KNITMAN · 1Y ago

MORBID START

John got up twice because our neighbours get up about 5am and leave their car running to warm it up and then they leave. Not complaining about that. I did that even earlier for dog shows. Ho...
KNITMAN · 1Y ago

A SADNESS THAT WILL NEVER BE CONSOLED

I feel sad. I also feel humiliated. Most of the people who attended our wedding no longer have anything to do with us. I chose those 24 people because I thought they were special and I wante...
KNITMAN · 1Y ago

IT IS OKAY TO HONOUR ONE' SELF

Well I don't think I shall ask for your help to go to sleep again!I woke up at 1:15 PM! But I did sleep soundly and it was only six hours. John's home today and I can't wait. I love my time ...