Points To Ponder
Recently I was asked this brilliant question: What do you expect us to do when you were first diagnosed with cancer?At first I didn't quite get the intention of the question, was it for me or about me or was it for someone else and about someone else. After some probing, I understood that the person asking the question was facing a dilemma because it was her grandma who was hit with cancer and that the grandma is very much an introvert person.Well, that's quite the other extreme of me. Okay, maybe to be fair, I gave her my situation when I was first diagnosed with breast cancer. It was not an easy moment. Very dramatic and emotional-gripping

Finding Gratitude
The problem has vanished, vaporising into the the thin air as I heaved with chokes and tears, seeking Allah's guidance about this pursuit.I am not writing for fame. I am not writing for popularity. I am writing because I want to connect with others - those who are in the same ordeal like me or those who are the caregivers of patients and survivors like me. I am writing to share my concerns with a hope that my concerns highlight the concerns of others, my pains describe the pains of others, my voice resonates the voice of others - if it is not 100 percent, maybe a quarter of it speaks their heart out too...I am writing with one intention that we the cancer sufferers d

My Problem
I am having a problem. A problem about blogging. Something that I feel all of you have known, noted and maybe understood.No, I am not facing the writer's block. But I think it is more of emotional block. What I wrote, when I re-read them, my emotion felt I better not upload it.The cycle in my life is the same. After 3 attacks, you will sometimes read the turmoil in my heart boils the fear to a higher degree and some of you may think this journey is not new anymore and I should very well know how to handle it.Sometimes there's unexplainable joy that I thought sharing the bliss will spread the energy out... but then again it's a joy so it's nothing special

The Troubled Mind
These few days my mind is pre-occupied with so many issues to ponder upon. My usual walking back from office was normally done not in a haste or rush manner. Instead I would just walk slowly as I watched the drivers thronged the road in Jalan Ampang. Whether it is raining or not, the road is one helluva of the busiest route in Kuala Lumpur.And a fews days ago, I almost got knocked down by a car. We both stopped at the nick of time. I trembled and like a big whack on my head, I heard myself saying louder to myself: What was I thinking??? There point, I sought forgiveness by uttering istighfars many times. It was indeed a close call. I didn't even look at the driver. I just raised

CT Scan Result
No words can describe the overwhelming gratitude as I heard the Oncologist said that the cancers in the liver have shrunk greatly. This time as she showed me the result by comparing the films of the recent and the previous one, she said: Alhamdulillah, I am so happy Dalilah!I wiped my face as my lips trembled uttering the gratitude to God. MH who was with me at that time was happy too. All this is the proof and sign that Allah listens to our prayers, yours and mine. This is a sign that He loves us no matter how our situation and condition is.God mentioned in the Qur'an that If we remember Him, He'll remember us. I always mention this in my talk that if we walk to God