Radical Thoughts On A Radical Eve
I'm totally ready for Radical Man. It feels like I was born for this moment. I have never known this amount of love for myself before.What are these thoughts I’m having? I’d never thought like this before. For two weeks now, I can feel this vibrating tangling sensation all over my body. I don’t think my mind knows what it is. I believe my soul and my sub-conscious knows exactly what it is.The last two nights, I would hear the words over and over in my head, “Love is a gift! Love is a gift! Love is NOT a right of ownership.”WOW, what a profound insight… Love is a gift! Love is NOT a right of ownership.Another thing I notice r

Brad's 1st Meeting Thoughts
I am sitting here at 11pm on a Friday night preparing for next Monday's 1st Radical Men Meeting. I am filled with eagerness and anticipation, perched on the ledge about to dive in. Truth is, I have been ready for a while now. Ready to put aside the robotic ways that I can plod on through my life. I am ready to STAY AWAKE now. I have been reducing things that hold me back over the course of the summer. I am newly open to transparency about my life. All summer long, I have been preparing for the re-birthing process of next Monday night. I am ready to bring my gifts, to share them, to inspire and be inspired. I am ready to live one of my ordination vows in a very real wa

Relationship Rant
Sick of the dancePush me, pull meYour endless needMy endless needNeither one of us ever enoughNever enoughNot quite rightSomething is offBetter keep lookingAlways someone else who's not enough for youWhile my love is too muchToo presentToo thereJust don't love me too muchBecause I don't know if I can stand itSomething must be wrong with youIf you want me that badlyYou must be too fucked-up or somethingAll these dancesTo avoid that true loveStanding in the middleWhere I meet youAnd you meet meTrue intimacyTwo hearts that are m

The End of the Crazymaking
Push-pull, push-pull. Back and forth. I want you. I don't want you. I don't know if I want you or not. Maybe I don't want to be with anyone. It's so much easier to just casually sleep with someone who I know doesn't want a relationship - at least they won't expect anything from me.I've done this dance as long as I can remember, at least back to age 14. I start getting close, I feel desire, and my mind starts to flip out. Wondering. Questioning. Racing. Is she right for me? But what about that person, or that person, or that person? What if I hurt her? What if I make the "wrong" choice? My body gets tense. I don't know whether to hold on or run. Intense fear or numbness. Panic.

Living on the Edge (An Ode to Slayer)
I recently was reading an interview with Slayer (a pioneering band in the genre of thrash-metal), and one of the guys mentioned something along the lines of how, while they were playing, it sounded like the band could fall apart at any moment. These guys are pretty tight musically, they've been around for about 25 years, their music requires precision and stamina to play, and it's not like they're sloppy or anything, so it made me curious. I hadn't thought about their music in that way before.I've heard similar statements said before about other musicians that have been pioneers and highly influential (as Slayer is). I've always wondered what makes certain bands stand out, and,