2 1/2 months in
Well it has been decided (or rather I've been informed) that I have a job at the church until the end of December unless I find another job sooner. Part of me wants to be done sooner and the other part realizes I have to trust in what the Lord has given me now and wait for another door to open. I feel like each day my heart becomes less interested in this position which also makes me frustrated with myself because even though I try just as hard in my efforts, I feel like I'm short changing the kids by not having any passion for working with them.On Halloween we went and served at a place that packages food for food banks with our students and it was such a neat experience. While we we

Almost Halloween
   It's the day before Halloween and a somewhat crazy weekend. This morning I help set up and then tonight am helping with our children's ministries Costume Party. I invited my soccer girls to come so I'm hoping at least one or two will show up...maybe I should pray about that. Tomorrow we are talking some middle school and high school students to Northwest Harvest to help package up food which will then be distributed to food banks and families in need. Then on Sunday we are hosting an event for our senior high in which people will be disguised and around the mall and the students have to find the disguised people (which I will be one of). I kind of had to take over getting peopl

2 Months In
So I've been here 2 months now and still don't enjoy the job really. I have been continuing to apply for jobs in the area but haven't heard anything as of yet. I talked to the youth pastor and they aren't going to kick me out but I also may be without work and a place to live depending on how quickly something comes about. I'm trying to trust God with the details but sometimes it's really hard to do that. I'm hoping to still volunteer with the youth group even when I no longer am on staff but it will depend on time constraints and whether I have to pull off 2 jobs or one depending on what I get. I have been doing better in my Bible reading and have pretty consistently been reading a f

Learning to believe for myself
I was talking to a friend last night and through that conversation came to realize something I think the Lord's been telling me for a while but I've been choosing to ignore it because that was "easier" than facing it. I've spent a lot of time looking up verses of encouragement and hope that I can use to minister to others and I believe all these verses are true...for others. I have allowed myself to encourage others with Truth and believing these Truths for them while at the same time not believing they can be true for me. I have allowed myself to be convinced that I don't deserve the Truths that I'm always sharing with others, as a means of comparing like everyone else is good enough to re

Oh the learning process
It's so interesting how these past 3 weeks have played out. The Lord has opened my eyes to different things such as some things that I'm REALLY passionate about and would love to do. There have been different things throughout my life which have kinda clued my into these things but I feel like things have been magnified here. Like I always knew I had a heart to serve others but I've found that I specifically love to serve those less fortunate (we're going to serve dinner at a soup kitchen tonight...something I've always wanted to do but have never done...and I'm super pumped about it)...I mean I still love to do things for others but being able to see specifically where my greatest passion