one morning in november
I'm only posting this long-ago draft up because I am determined not to blog (properly) until my new template is up! But since I feel sorry for you guys who have nevertheless, came back faithfully everyday, I've decided to dig up some old drafts. It's a very angry post, but remember, this was then. At 2 in the morning, weeks ago! *2am;

loser
So she thought, "Why is it that some people get this and that, when I don't? When we are just as good as them, possibly even better? When we try even harder, therefore we deserved it more?""Why is it that some suck at being a human being, but they seem to be more successful than you, who try you best (almost) every time? Why do we sometimes feel like a born failure, loser? With a capital L, mind you."She couldn't even think of something she was really good at. But she tries really hard, she does.It's just that I have to understand that sometimes things do not and would not go the way you want it to.

i promise i'll blog properly another day
Today I bit off more than I could chew, and other than wasting time and money, half of what was planned did not even get done.Next time I shall not aim so impossibly high and waste everybody's time.

i promise i will blog properly tomorrow
Image Source: Cartoon StockI turned on my computer happily, thinking about all the NON assignment-related things that I had planned to do.But now it isn't even midnight and I feel so sick and tired

and they say that the sky is blue
It's funny.These couple of weeks have been so assignments-laden crazy that I can't sleep, eat or go out without thinking of work. I have to put things and people on hold, and face my parents' nags every night for staying up late. But surprisingly I don't hate it all. At least it gives me an aim to reach out to, something useful to do, a reason to go on living everyday; something that I have to finish doing.I don't know what will happen once I hand in my last assignment and then in early December, take my piano exam. I hate living aimlessly, going on for days without achieving, doing somethin