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through a widow's eyes · 1Y ago

smoke ring day

Reminiscent of Neil Young’s “I went insane / like a smoke ring day / when the wind blows.” For real. This is me taking a little break from my day. As if typing out my thoughts helps somehow....
through a widow's eyes · 1Y ago

wide…open

This line, from a NY Times book review, caught my eye: “All our lives are seamed with tragedies that gleam, like quartz, with petrified beauty.” There is deep pain in love and loss. Of cours...
through a widow's eyes · 1Y ago

is, was, is

My husband Jeff’s birthday is, was, is January 6. Twelfth Night, Feast of the Epiphany, “Little Christmas”, he would chortle, rubbing his hands together gleefully, eyes shining in anticipati...
through a widow's eyes · 1Y ago

like so much smoke…

Last night I dreamed that my Jeff was alive, and planning to leave me. This dream went on and on. He had decided to divorce me because for decades he hated the way I picked up the messy room...
through a widow's eyes · 1Y ago

keystone

Turkey stock is simmering fragrantly, fire is glowing merrily in the wood stove, and my girl is ensconced under a comforter with her laptop and kitten. Outwardly all around us is a peaceful ...
through a widow's eyes · 1Y ago

Thanksgiving, past and present

They told me you just can’t predict what the triggers will be. First weekend of November: at the theater, contentedly waiting in the buzzing capacity crowd for the play to begin, I was sudde...
through a widow's eyes · 2Y ago

This, I got.

Yesterday was surely just one of those days. Do you have them too? Veil thin days. I could see no cause for this: no anniversary, no particular sadness, no burning question needing an answer...
through a widow's eyes · 2Y ago

soul food

Something about the first frost brings out the cozy bunny in me. Don’t laugh. This has been a summer of rewarding hard physical work and walking in beauty <—days and heading for the nearest ...
through a widow's eyes · 2Y ago

(Maudlin)

It’s been a week more trying than most. It’s been a week of fear and pain and sadness and worry, and it’s not over yet. Last night I went down to my local watering hole for a taste of the mi...
through a widow's eyes · 2Y ago

upta camp

Spent a long weekend upta camp. I always feel like I have FAR too much to do to drive up there, forgetting each time that 1) it’s a mere 3 hours – an easy cruise up the coast – and 2) once I...