Doctors Suck
So, I had to go to the doctor today. Nothing's wrong. But they wouldn't refill my prescription unless I went in. So I did. And I got on the scale, only to see that I've gained weight. Ugh. And to be told that my blood pressure is bordering on high. That's the first time that's ever happened. So I was told I had to lose weight. I will be the first one to admit that I have not been training much lately. My hip has prevented me from doing long miles. And I haven't been eating as well as I should. I just don't understand how my blood pressure was fine three months ago and now it's bordering on high. I guess things like that happen. And I should

Just Breathe
I have recovered a little bit of my composure from the car thing. I have no idea when it will be drivable or what the estimate is. I'm waiting to find out. Until then, I'm just thankful they found it without more damage. This has turned into a more hectic week than I'd anticipated. Aside from the car, I've been incredibly busy at work. But I'm keeping my head above water and will work this weekend to continue to do so and in the hope that I can take next Wednesday off. I gave my class their midterms on Monday. Unfortunately, I have not graded it yet, so they are going to have to wait until Monday to get the results. That's life. Last night, I

This Day Has Sucked
My car was stolen from out in front of my house. That was how my day ended. The police recovered it - well, most of it. It's missing its trunk, hood, fenders, stereo, and has a jacked up ignition. Yes, I am glad it was recovered and that it's mostly in one piece. But. I'm still upset and still has a "why me" moment earlier. I wish I lived some where that I don't have to worry about my car being stolen or double-checking the locks on the doors at night. Since that isn't the case, I will just have to accept that some people are just fuckers who don't understand that they can't have what's not theirs.

The Girl In The Photograph
The hallway wall in my house is covered from floor to ceiling in photographs. Most of them, I have taken. They are from all the places I have been. There's a picture on the wall of me and my friend Robi, atop the Arch d'Triomphe, with the Eiffel Tower in the background. We are both wearing sunglasses and I'm a lot skinnier. I went on the trap in June and July of 1995. It seems like a century ago. I was looking at the picture earlier and wondering if I knew then what I know now, would I have just stayed in Europe? Would I have broken up with crackhead when I got home? Would I have opted not to go to law school? I look at that picture and wonder how much of her is lef

Discipline
Discipline and I seem to have parted ways recently. I'm being a flaky blogger. I have not been training very much, if at all. It's been well over a week since I've ran and a lot longer than that since I've been on the bike. Yes, I've been using my hip as an excuse. But really - I just haven't felt like it. I've been eating badly and not sleeping. This seems to be a fall affliction for me. I had the same problems last fall and winter. In theory, I love fall. It's  It's supposed to be my favorite season. I love the food and the colors and the relief from the oppressive heat of summer. But I find as I get older that while I do love fall,