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Was This in the Plan? · 6d ago

An empty wheelchair

One of the first things I did the day after Andy died was to bag up all his meds, injections and creams and take them back to the hospital.  They were a visible sign of his cancer, they were...
Was This in the Plan? · 4W ago

The long goodbye

We took Daisy back to school for her funeral, one last trip to the school she loved and had attended from the age of three.  I wanted to hide under a rock but because Daisy touched so many l...
Was This in the Plan? · 1M ago

Coming to terms with it all

It's so hard to believe that Daisy has gone, that we will not see her any more, that I won't hear her call out "mummyyyyy!!!!!!!".  She was the centre of our home.  Everything revolved aroun...
Was This in the Plan? · 1M ago

Thank you for the days

The post I always knew that one day I would write is the hardest. Today our beautiful, feisty, determined girl, Daisy Rose, took her last breath and is out of pain and dancing in the stars w...
Was This in the Plan? · 1M ago

In Daisy's hands

I wasn't supposed to be writing this update.  This update was supposed to be all about how it really does take a village to bring up a child like Daisy, joined up services around education, ...
Was This in the Plan? · 2M ago

Realistic Resolutions

"I don't make resolutions"Andy always made this announcement at New Year (whenever I started reeling out my list for the year).He firmly believed the focus should be about changing habits , ...
Was This in the Plan? · 3M ago

Looking at you now, you would never know

Daisy was born by c-section.  That wasn't in the plan.  My other children hadn't been born that way.  We had hoped for a home waterbirth, the same as Jules two years previously.  But as alwa...
Was This in the Plan? · 3M ago

One Year On

14 December 2016It's been a whole year since we said goodbye to Andy.12 months.12 months where we have had to learn to be a family without him.  To keep going without his larger than life pr...
Was This in the Plan? · 3M ago

Decisions, changes....

When Andy was alive we always worked on the assumption that we would outlive Daisy.  That we would not need to worry about what would happen to her if we were not around.But things are diffe...
Was This in the Plan? · 4M ago

All the firsts

It's been nearly a year now.  It's been a tough year.  So many firsts; first father's day, first mother's day, first wedding anniversary, the children's birthdays, first new school year, fir...