Does he like me too?
I mentioned briefly before that I'd stumbled upon a crush. This weekend I went to that place again and ran into that cutie pie again. This time, while reaching into my purse for my wallet, I noticed the young man standing very near me. I'd decided to write a check (they don't accept credit cards and I didn't have enough cash) and just as I was about to reach out for one of the pens in the cup on the table, I saw the cutie pie reach out and hand me a pen. He likes me, don't he?

Slipped up on this crush
Have you ever slipped up on a crush before? I did. Over the past several months - starting in June I think - I've seen a guy every time I go to a particular place. This summer I had only been maybe three times if that much but every time I went I saw him there. Once in the early fall I saw him there and he spoke to me - just a simple greeting. I am so distracted when I see him that I try my best not to notice where he is and what he's doing. No matter what time I arrive at this place, he's there. No matter what day of the week I go to this place, he's there. No matter where I stand or sit, he's near me or in my general line of vision. I remember vividly w

9 years ago, today, and in the very near future
My daddy died February 14, 2000. I attended his funeral five days later. I was asked, no scratch that, I was told that I would be speaking on behalf of the family at his funeral. That was nine years ago. A work friend lost her father last week and I attended the funeral today. The group of people I was with inquired about my ability to speak at my father's funeral. They were in their 40s and 50s and still had their fathers. They began to cry when they heard I'd not only lost my father but my mother as well. I looked at them and apologized for telling the story because I was fine and now they were upset. While I looked at my friend weeping for her loss, I felt stronger. I

Oops! I did it again!
Geezmyknees! I just found out that another celebrity crush is gay. What is wrong with me? Why was I born with no gay-dar? A friend of mine who I've been swapping music (pop standards and show tunes) said I was a gay man trapped in a woman's body. He might be right because most of the celebrities I crush on are gay – and I don't realize it of course until I get proof. Just because he dances, sings, and acts on Broadway does NOT make him gay, does it? I hate I missed Tyra Banks' show on why women fall in love with gay men. Maybe I would know the root of my issues.

The Past
My past is heavy on my mind. I have walked away from some of my family. I have walked away from all of my church homes. I have walked away from jobs. Some of my family has walked away from me. And I was taken away from one of my church homes. I've never been fired although I had one job that I felt was a mutual departure when I walked away. Last night I dreamed about visiting my first church. At the age of 3 my family (or my daddy to be most accurate) joined the New Nonconnah Missionary Baptist Church in Memphis, Tennessee (corner of Tulane and Shelby drive – right next to the Tulane projects). At the age of 8 my daddy baptized me there. At the age of 17 my family left and